Category Archives: Perspective

I AM ENOUGH

Hello friends!

It took me a month or so to be brave to make this post.

At first I thought-maybe I should try to lose weight and then I caught myself. No not that. That is not right. I am enough.

Then this morning (when the stars aligned so to speak) I thought: my eyes are puffy. I have this red spot on my neck. Nooo not that again. I am enough.

It was also difficult to take a picture and be happy with one. I am enough.

I am enough, without makeup, with hair loss, in my body that is brave experiencing autoimmune disease, in my changing body, in my age. I am 56…..

I AM ENOUGH (even with all the pictures I did not like)

Taken by Surprise

Hello Friends! I hope you’ve had a great weekend!

A week ago when on vacation I had some odd-wig and then shaved head moments. Let me share them with you:

Our travel agent (Sharon) accompanied 9 of us on this trip that included her husband, daughter, and new SIL.

When we arrived at Ft Lauderdale airport, it’s 4am and a little chilly- I had flown the red eye wig less and make up less so as soon as we de planed, I spent a quick 15 minutes putting on makeup.

The whole group saw me during the flight-rosacea does not like me to wear makeup for 12+ hours so I was being gentle on my skin. But as soon as we arrived, I wanted to see Miami with makeup AND hair.

Outside the airport I rifled through my luggage to grab my wig, Sharon thought I was getting a coat- and appeared startled as I popped my wig on in front of her.

Several times on our trip I was either wearing my shaved head or my wig so it was pretty obvious.

At the end of the trip Sharon mentioned to me “it’s ok if you don’t wear your hair, you look great without it”- but I told her I liked my wig and sometimes I like my own head. I think maybe other people feel they need to give me permission to be myself. Another of our group members said my shaved head was “spunky, I really like it” although no one seemed curious enough to ask me why I wore a wig. Maybe they thought that too personal? Maybe people felt uncomfortable inquiring about my hair?

I don’t mind questions. I don’t however, wear a wig or my shaved head to make anyone else comfortable. I do it to make myself happy in my own situation.

I will continue to wear wigs or shave my head just for me to feel comfortable with me and my hair loss ❤️

Wig Travels

Hello Friends! I went on vacation last week and my wig joined me! I thought you would like to hear of “her” vacation and cruise!

Flying into Miami, Marion (by Jon Renau-my wig) spent the flight in a cozy place in her lady’s luggage, wrapped and tucked in a special box. Her lady traveled a red eye with no makeup and hair; but at 4am in the baggage claim-lady put on her makeup with the treasures in carry on baggage. Waiting for a bus outside the Ft Lauderdale airport Lady is chilled with some wind and Marion popped on her head with several human beings watching. Marion pretends to be a hat sometimes, she keeps Lady’s head warm.

Marion got her picture taken in front of Hard Rock Stadium hours before Super Bowl. Other wigs are impressed. She toured the amazing mansion of Vizcaya in Miami and looks fresh and bouncy as if she had not flown a red eye.

Marion got her picture taken previous to boarding a huge cruise ship as she did not look like Lady’s other hair.

Marion’s lovely locks waved in the breeze as the ship left the pier and did a big U turn in the harbor to maneuver in the right direction.

Marion toured the big ship and waved in the breeze as Lady sunned on deck with a bathing suit and hat (that fits lady’s head even with a wig!)

Marion spend the next morning relaxing in the room as Lady got a facial but she joined the ship for a great burger lunch and then after more exploring, dinner and a fun comedy show that night.

The next day in Jamaica, Marion stayed on the ship as Lady was horseback riding and didn’t want to lose her to island living but back on the ship, she rejoins Lady for dinner and another entertaining musical show.

The next day in Grand Cayman, Marion stays back because Lady is riding a wave runner and swimming with stingrays and for sure would stay in this lovely haven. But back on the ship, Marion and makeup join Lady for dinner and a comedy show.

Here’s another day at another island Cozumel; Marion relaxes in the room as Lady will be snorkeling and exploring a Cenote. Marion doesn’t mind staying back because she is happy with her new owner 🙂 and the Cenote has bats that poop so Marion is a little afraid of bat dung staining her locks.

The last day on the ship, Marion spends a lot of time with Lady because the skies are cloudy and somewhat rainy/windy and is not the time to stay on deck. Marion gets to see two movies along with eating a yummy lunch and early dinner. She watches karoke which sometimes is good/bad depending on the singer LOL- but Marion never looks bad.

Today as Marion gets off ship with Lady, she anticipates a fun outing to Everglades National Park -Marion finally gets to tag along!-Lady quickly tucks her in a pink backpack for safety during an airboat tour but she is back in place afterwards. She finally went on an exciting excursion!

Many people observed Marion’s on and off adventures and wonder what it all means but Lady loves Marion and they get along so well that they don’t care what others think.

 

What’s Hair

Hello Friends and happy Friday! I hope everyone has some relaxation planned this weekend! I’ve mowed lawns and mopped floors this week, so that Saturday I can spend in my yard doing a little rose pruning. I think it will be relaxing 🙂

I’ve been following Rachel Hollis and have a strong interest in her Start Today Journal but have not bought said journal. She has a podcast detailing how to do the journal without actually buying one and I listened to that.

I finally decided to write down 10 of my dreams in the manner Rachel recommends.

The interesting thing about this exercise…I realized that none of my dreams have anything to do with my hair.

My hair (possibly in conjunction with my autoimmune disease-I am not sure) has been falling out at a terrific rate. I was a bit distressed by this until I went over my 10 dreams and got a little perspective.

One thing I realized, it’s not important, in the whole scheme of things whether my hair falls out or not.

I am an exceptional wife, mother and grandmother

I have XXXXX dollars in the bank

I am financially independent

I am a world traveler

I am a marathon bicyclist

I am spiritually connected to God

You see, there is nothing about my hair! There is also nothing about my looks. This was very helpful for me. I highly recommend Rachel Hollis system or really any of your choice that prompts you to list your goals in present stated form. I AM or I HAVE

We can all be our best person and that has nothing to do with my HAIR!

(I’m wearing my Halo in this picture FYI)

Shakespeare Confusion

Hey friends!

I hope you’ve all had a great weekend! We’ve actually had a lot of sunshine the last few days and it’s been wonderful! I don’t miss the ❄️

Hubs and I had a fun, yet super confusing experience at the theatre last night. We attended “Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead” which follows Hamlet through these two minor characters.

I have never ever ever been so confused in a play before. These two characters start out the play by themselves but they are confused themselves and keep finding themselves going in and out the story and characters of Hamlet.

I thought to myself, “I have no idea what’s going on…why is this so hard, I want to leave, I can’t stay awake, I’m gonna die, I can’t do this” but the tickets were snagged by good friends so I didn’t want to offend them.

I also knew there was an intermission so I kept thinking, “it’s not even halfway done, the intermission hasn’t even started, oh my gosh I can’t sit through this”!

When the intermission started I felt relieved but still frustrated because I couldn’t figure out what was going on and I typically understand Shakespeare.

As our friends and I started talking, I realized “Rosencrantz and Guildenstern (really) Are Dead”. I said, what if they’re dead?? They can’t remember their names, don’t know where they were going or where they came from, there was a really weird coin toss which always resulted in the coin being “heads” up-impossible in real life, and they couldn’t follow the other characters as they left the scene they were in. It was weird but all of a freakin sudden made sense that they actually were dead but didn’t know it.

The last half of the play was more pleasant cause I knew they were dead and details made sense.

But seriously I don’t know if I’ve ever used that much brain power that late at night and took so long to understand something. Holy crap that was hard and maybe it prevented early Alzheimer’s but I never want to do that again…. a whole play focused on one persons idea of death.

Then again I have been binge watching Criminal Minds on Netflix and “Cold” podcast. Maybe an existential tragicomedy is just what my brain needed??

Check it out and see what you 🤔

2019 Doesn’t Like Me

Happy New Year friends! Seriously this is what I thought last week! (I have this thing against odd numbers!) but seriously I experienced some unexpected difficulties at work which hijacked my whole week of blogging and life as a hopeful-positive person. Life is hard sometimes but then I just have to keep going right??

So I thought instead of focusing on the negative parts of my week, I would share another closet shopping trip!

It started out as a cold day! Which should have clued me into the negative storm heading my way, but I digress…..

So I wanted to wear some warm leggings (sequin leggings from Express last year are what I decided on😂) YES Then I paired them with a thermal black shirt (tip for dressing warm) and a leopard dress from ASOS last year. I added my leather looking sneaks and my (actually this is new) deep green leather like moto jacket with faux fur collar from Express (at least it was 50% off) and a cute appliqué bag I snagged from Charming Charlie’s a couple years ago.

I stayed warm, I wore a flippin cute dress, and if you looked close- you could see sequins peeking out as I went about my work day. That’s almost enough to balance out a bad work week right??

YES

(My week in emojis)

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Celebrate with Shorts

Hello Friends!

How was your weekend? I hope you and Monday are making peace with each other 🙂 Me and Mondays don’t always get along that why I wish this for you LOL

I thought I would share a new found discovery: I haven’t worn shorts in about 16 years. I think I was always a little self conscious and felt awkward about my legs but the last year or so I realize I need to let that go!

(Last year as I began my blog, I started wearing more dresses in the summer, kind of letting my legs out in the open) and I realize its fun and there is nothing wrong with my legs 🙂

So this year for my birthday, I got a gift card from my employer and I bought a straw tassel hat and a yellow striped ruffle sleeve shirt at Target and paired it with some destroyed denim shorts (the best deal ever for $3 at JCPenney)! Then I took a picture with my shorts on AND went out to dinner with the hubs with my shorts on! Is that celebrating or what??! I feel super accomplished taking this step and being less judgmental of myself.

Anyone want to join me and be less judgmental?? All aboard my self love train! Everyone is welcome and there is room! 🙂

Let Me Adjust

Hello Friends and happy Monday!

My son moved out (again) into his own apartment Saturday and I found myself quite sad. I wondered why….

I started this blog when my youngest child (daughter) married and moved out last year, I thought it would help me adjust and focus on something else other than work or on being sad that my children were all moved out.

Then this January, my son found himself in somewhat of a quandary with a work position and his apartment lease ending. He moved in with us with the intention of it only being a month or so, but ended up being a little bit longer.

About a month ago, my oldest daughter and her husband (with two littles XOXO) moved in for a couple weeks until their rental house was available. So for some time, my house was quite busy as you can imagine. But my daughter moved back out and now my son is gone and I find myself a little sad as we (me and hubs) are empty nesters (again)! ?

I really think I can get used to this as long as it doesn’t continually change. I live with lots of people, I almost live alone, live with lots of people, live almost alone…I just need time to adjust and consistency! LOL I DO NOT LIKE CHANGE, HAVE I MENTIONED THAT? LOL

I need time to adjust (this involves chocolate and Netflix) and now I’m feeling sad again, so thanks for reading friends! Pretty soon I will be back to myself or who I thought I was before I live with lots of people and then living alone.

Haute for Pink (but does IT REALLY MATTER)

Hello friends!

Some times I have random thoughts such as “do I wear too much pink”? Normally I’m the last one to leave the house in the mornings and it’s even not a question I can ask my husband because he has no opinion on what color I wear LOL

But I have to remember….it is vital to remember IT DOES NOT MATTER! LOL I could wear pink or green or a dress or a skirt and IT DOES NOT MATTER!

I think I could probably wear pink pants, pink shirt, pink jacket, pink shoes with pink bag and earrings and IT STILL WOULD NOT MATTER!

These are my thoughts for the day, when you have those judgmental things pop up in your mind (such as: am I too fat, can someone see this zit, does my hair look funny, am I wearing too much pink, can someone see my wrinkles?)….say to yourself IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I THINK and then wear what you want, ignore that zit, ignore what the media says you should weigh or ignore judgments about your hair or age or makeup or skin or feet. This will help, I promise.

Just to show it does not matter, I’m attaching photos of the day I thought I wore too much pink…I don’t think my thoughts about that mattered.

Shopping blues

Hello friends!

I’ve had a weird experience lately, I’ll cal it the shopping blues.

I went to Marshall’s, JCPenney, Target, and Old Navy and only found one blouse that I really liked. I got the one at OldNavy but sheesh am I depressed?? Really only find one thing to buy?

Granted I didn’t hit H&M or Ann Taylor but not a ton of time as I had an eye appointment yesterday after I got off work. Maybe I wasn’t really putting my whole effort into the experience?

Sometimes that happens to me and I think maybe I’m overwhelmed with work and need to watch some movies, go for a walk, get my toe nails done, play with grandkids, chat with friends, more movies, sleep in, garden, (maybe do my laundry and clean- not necessarily) -that’s my plan of self care and I think I’ll be back online shopping in no time 😜