So last night, I had to unwind before going to bed. Work this week was not a pleasant experience. (For some reason I feel like work should be fun! It shouldn’t be work, I don’t know where I’ve got this odd idea)
My Oprah magazine came in the mail and I thought I would read a bit to focus on something else!
I found an article on Menopause and thought I would see if there’s anything in it to help explain WTH my life feels the way it does 😂😆 I was genuinely curious.
So, to give a little background. Thursday in heading in the door to work and finding out there isn’t an office – I felt this crazy surge of rage (and freak I’m not an angry person) and an image popped into my head of myself “throwing my metal water bottle at the speed of light smashing through the big glass window” in our main front office-WTH is wrong with me??
Anyway, back to my magazine and article on menopause. Did you know, unreasonable anger is a symptom of menopause?? When I read that, I thought you gotta be kidding me!! All this time I wondered if I was going crazy or if I was a bad person or somehow I’ve been crazy all along. Trust me, these are odd thoughts for me as a therapist but this totally makes sense to me.
There have been soooo many times at the checkout or in traffic or at work that I just feel outrageously angry and I never knew this is normal for a woman going through menopause.
First off, it might just be lucky that we don’t have many menopausal women going postal out in public cause I’ve managed to control my flash of anger but how is everyone else doing it?
Holy cow, wouldn’t it be nice if someone let us know this is what to expect when we will never be expecting?? Hopefully one day my hormones will settle down and I’ll be my normal self again.
So the last couple months I found a couple really cute bags that I love….these are also SMALL bags….
In my purse’s I normally carry a big wallet, a cosmetic bag (five or six lipsticks depending on the day, dental floss, fingernail clippers, acetaminophen, lipgloss, fingernail file) a small lotion, my cell phone, cell charger, my reading glasses, car keys, and sometimes some coupons along with my pill container….so what do I get rid of?
Dental floss, phone/charger, lipstick are crucial, along with my pills and car keys. If I’m driving (which I always am) I need my license and debit card. I guess I don’t need anything else right?
It’s hard to downsize because what if I have a lipstick emergency or my nail breaks?? Everyone knows a ragged nail will drive me crazy all day long! I don’t like emergencies! I always want to be prepared, so most of the time I have a HUGE bag….a small bag is a big change. I also don’t like change too, did I mention that? NO CHANGES….;) (links to the tiniest cutest bags ever)
Women’s Cocktail Crossbody
Turnlock Crossbody Bag
So since I’ve been sick, I’ve been watching a lot of movies. Usually when I’m sick, I watch a lot of Jane Austen…but this time I seem to be hooked on disaster movies. Being sick calls for lengthy movies (so one doesn’t have to constantly get up and put another movie in…Jane Austen movies….especially Pride and Prejudice…go on forever! Which I love, I love the period dramas/comedies…they’re so fascinating but also long which is perfect when one is ill) But this time, since I just went on a cruise, I felt a fascination with Titanic and Rose DeWitt Bukater!
She went on a cruise-I went on a cruise…granted her cruise ended differently than mine. I noticed one thing:I am not the biggest high maintenance woman on this planet!
I offer evidence of my claim: here is a picture of me at the airport with our luggage (I have two 50# checked bags and one carry on bag (my husband also has two checked bags, but I’ve put shoes in one of his so I guess you have to count them all) and here are pictures of Rose DeWitt Bukater’s luggage (character played by Kate Winslet) “all the trunks from that car there, 12 from here, and the safe to the parlour suite rooms B52, 54, and 56”-explains Cal’s assistant, that bad guy that’s always harassing Rose and Jack. I don’t have near the same number of bags, of course she had these huge hats and several beaded dresses along with corsets that took a lot of room; but holy cow they had TRUNKS…have you ever seen a trunk? I could’ve got all my clothes in my closet into one trunk…I only had two suitcases and a carryon…who knew I’m a simple woman.
Maybe I need to up my game? I’ll be pondering my simple nature (compared to Rose DeWitt Bukater) while I watch another disaster movie-“2012” which coincidentally also has a cruise ship… maybe the next movie will be “Poseidon”???