Category Archives: Hair Loss

Shaved or Wigs?

So now that I don’t have incredible neck pain (it’s just really stiff but I do have pain if I’ve held my head up too long-I’m building my stamina 😂) that contributes to arm and leg pain; I’ve got a conundrum. Do I go back to wearing wigs since they don’t cause pain or do I stick with my silver shaved hair??

The last year or so, it’s been really painful to wear wigs; they caused headaches and severe neck pain. I got comfortable with my gray/silver hair that I get specially shaved at my favorite barber. Sometimes I have him etch designs in my scalp.

I love my wigs! I have two beautiful red wigs that have almost purple hues. I have two blonde wigs; one beautiful bleached wig which makes me feel like Marilyn Monroe. And the other a California blonde shoulder length. One wig that is brown with highlights and it’s quite long. One black ear length wig. And one sandy highlighted shoulder length wig. So I have lots of variety in my wigs which is fun.

I wore wigs because my hair just kept falling out and it was super frustrating and emotionally painful. Then I couldn’t wear wigs because it was physically painful-GREAT.

So I found someone to cut my hair stylishly and super short. It worked! And I’ve really grown to love my gray hair. I’m not sure it’s super feminine but I’ve made the best of hair loss.

What to do?

I always liked dyeing my hair and experimenting with different colors. Wigs let me do that along with different lengths. And now wigs are more expensive than I’ve ever seen.

I won’t get rid of my wigs but maybe I will wear them every once in a while when I feel the need for a change. I still love my gray/silver hair shaved hair!

Let me know in the comments which is your favorite!

I know who I Am

Last week I participated in part two of a training at my work for DBT with clients with psychosis.

The trainer was on zoom and next to her name was (they, their).

I made a comment on some content and the trainer referred to me and my comment as “they just said”…. I responded in private chat to refer to me as she/her yet the trainer did not acknowledge what I asked.

I was stunned. I was angry. I am not a they.

This goes back to an irrational thought I have due to my hair loss and my hair style -(not wearing wigs anymore because it causes me more neck pain and headaches) that I am not feminine “enough”. It’s an irrational “not enough” thought.

I know this is a thought and is not a fact. Logically I know this; and when this person referred to me as they, this thought raised its ugly head. It’s an ugly thought, it’s not a fact.

I am a daughter of my Heavenly Father who loves me. I know who I am. I am not neutral; I am a woman, friend, daughter, mother, and grandmother. I am worthwhile and important and that doesn’t have anything to do with my appearance.

I can note my appearance because my hair curls in the front like my dad, my lips have the shape of my mother, I have dark eyes like my great grandmother. My children have physical traits of mine passed on. My appearance connects me to my ancestors and to my progeny.

After this happened last Thursday, I had two strangers comment flattering about my appearance/hair and two people I know comment flattering about my appearance/hair. It reminded me that one person’s opinion is not a fact. I see this as a sign that my Heavenly Father knew my heart and tried to soothe my wounds and remind me who I am.

I KNOW WHO I AM

Hair Dilemma

Happy Thursday everyone!

So I have a dilemma.

I have some gorgeous wigs that I love.

I also have a neck injury which I am seeing specialists to help with pain. I received two shots in my head (my occipital nerves are pinched-as they go around my scalp on the right side).

My headaches and general pain is decreased but I wore my cute blonde wig for a few hours on Monday and 🔥🔥I was in such pain!

So…I can’t wear wigs right now. Who knows how long that will last.

I am now wearing my own hair although it’s pretty thin. I do like the color-it’s mostly silver with some black/brown. It makes me think of Storm on X-Men 😂

I just need some shaping-trimming as it is different lengths in different spots.

I guess I don’t have a dilemma. I’ll be who I am and wear my own hair.

Score for me!

Be You too!

For The Love of Red Hair

I remember several years ago attending a Utah Jazz basketball game. One of the Jazz dancers had long red/purple hair and I thought OMG I want red/purple hair! It was so pretty.

So I changed my hair color. I had platinum hair then and was ready for a change. Platinum is a lot of upkeep but so is red. Red washes out quickly-very quickly. So I spent time to grow my hair although noticed it seemed to fall out more often.

I had special “red” shampoo, washed my hair in cold water and blow dryed my hair on cooler temperatures.

This first picture is 2018- my hair is a dark brown with purple red highlights. I am also wearing a “halo” dyed to match and I loved it!

This next picture is just a couple days ago. I cut my long purple/red wig because the end were getting fuzzy and tangled but as you can see-the color is almost the same and not even close to the upkeep of my hair before! Wigs can be so much more versatile and the red color lasts a long time! No color touch ups yet (it’s been a year)!

I love red hair! It’s my version of a Jazz 💃

I AM ENOUGH

Hello friends!

It took me a month or so to be brave to make this post.

At first I thought-maybe I should try to lose weight and then I caught myself. No not that. That is not right. I am enough.

Then this morning (when the stars aligned so to speak) I thought: my eyes are puffy. I have this red spot on my neck. Nooo not that again. I am enough.

It was also difficult to take a picture and be happy with one. I am enough.

I am enough, without makeup, with hair loss, in my body that is brave experiencing autoimmune disease, in my changing body, in my age. I am 56…..

I AM ENOUGH (even with all the pictures I did not like)

Wig Mistaken Identity

Hello friends and happy Sunday!

Since I’ve been wearing wigs, I’ve become more comfortable changing the color, length, and style of wigs I wear which is really fun for me although sometimes difficult for others 😂

Today before I left for church (I like to be early and hubs doesn’t mind arriving 5 minutes late-so we drive separate) hubs yelled at me “hey come back” (I was headed out the door) and I entered our living room he remarked “I just had to see what you look like so I know what hair to look for; I can’t find you if I didn’t see what hair you are wearing”!

I thought about this and yes I guess I put friends/family through mental gymnastics trying to find me in a crowd if I’m wearing different hair. I guess that’s one complication of wearing wigs! 😂🤣

Taken by Surprise

Hello Friends! I hope you’ve had a great weekend!

A week ago when on vacation I had some odd-wig and then shaved head moments. Let me share them with you:

Our travel agent (Sharon) accompanied 9 of us on this trip that included her husband, daughter, and new SIL.

When we arrived at Ft Lauderdale airport, it’s 4am and a little chilly- I had flown the red eye wig less and make up less so as soon as we de planed, I spent a quick 15 minutes putting on makeup.

The whole group saw me during the flight-rosacea does not like me to wear makeup for 12+ hours so I was being gentle on my skin. But as soon as we arrived, I wanted to see Miami with makeup AND hair.

Outside the airport I rifled through my luggage to grab my wig, Sharon thought I was getting a coat- and appeared startled as I popped my wig on in front of her.

Several times on our trip I was either wearing my shaved head or my wig so it was pretty obvious.

At the end of the trip Sharon mentioned to me “it’s ok if you don’t wear your hair, you look great without it”- but I told her I liked my wig and sometimes I like my own head. I think maybe other people feel they need to give me permission to be myself. Another of our group members said my shaved head was “spunky, I really like it” although no one seemed curious enough to ask me why I wore a wig. Maybe they thought that too personal? Maybe people felt uncomfortable inquiring about my hair?

I don’t mind questions. I don’t however, wear a wig or my shaved head to make anyone else comfortable. I do it to make myself happy in my own situation.

I will continue to wear wigs or shave my head just for me to feel comfortable with me and my hair loss ❤️

It’s A Wigs Life

Hi friends!

Happy Wednesday

Over the weekend I had some fun at the wig store-Creative Wigs in Orem Utah.

I’ve been a little lonely ever since I got rid of my black hair, it is such a fun color; so on a whim I went to the wig store Saturday!

There were several women at the store who seemed to be supporting one older lady in a wheelchair. She seemed hesitant to get a wig although the one I saw on her looked so cute!

I started helping myself to the wigs displayed and tried some on at the stand next to the big group.

I found the one I liked ($125 too, what a deal! Along with being synthetic and heat resistant!)and an associate trimmed the lace around the face for me.

I went to pay for my gorgeous, curly, long, dark, lush prize and met this cute, older lady at the cashier. I told her she would love having a wig and it looked so cute on her! Don’t we all need a vote of confidence from a stranger??

YES

More Hair Chronicles

Hello friends!

Happy Sunday and I hope you’re all having a wonderful weekend!

I know you all are aware of my struggles with hair loss. Remember on July 6 I got a new blonde wig because I was so tired of worrying about my thinning hair.

I didn’t tell anyone that after I got the wig, I took a pair of scissors and cut my own hair super short. You can see it a little bit in my “Bucket List” post a month or so back. It was easier to tuck in the wig cap.

Well, I’ve even changed that. My youngest daughter knew/saw I cut my hair (to be honest, all my family saw it) and sent me a picture of a super short haircut with shaved sides she thought I would like that I could be comfortable with when I wasn’t wearing my wig.

I really liked the pic my daughter sent but didn’t want to pay anyone to cut my hair since I spent so much money on a wig.

So my oldest daughter (on August 3rd) used my set of clippers and scissors to follow my directions and shave the sides of my head, leaving kind of a Mohawk on the top.

It’s so much easier to wear my wig and I can actually start to see what color my hair really is. I have quite a bit of silver interestingly enough. I tried to get it to stick up straight but I don’t have the right product and my hair has some curl 😂

I’ll wear it sometimes like this on Saturday or at water activities because I can’t get my wig wet.

But I thought you would like to see the evolution of my hair. It’s kind of like The Chronicles of Narnia-😂😂 only it’s kind of edgy and I might like it 😎

Wig Adventures??

Hello Friends!

How’s everyone doing this fine Thursday??

I thought I would share something that I can now laugh at in regards to my new wig!

Remember a few weeks ago I went bridge jumping and synchronized swimming? Well the same time I traveled with my daughter and her two children in my husband’s SUV, a Ford Explorer with apparently not enough room for the four of us. Granted we each brought a lot of stuff for six days which is necessary when traveling with children.

But we also brought three camp chairs and two inflatable river rafts. We anticipated playing in the lake and the river. We did float down the river and it was so fun (we got the rafts from Costco $20, a great deal). But we packed up our suitcases and all every day because we moved from one hotel room to another (alas we did not plan ahead) so packing up every day was a HUGE pain.

This is where my wig comes into play. There were a few days I did not wear my wig because we were doing water sports, so I brought a couple nice towels from home and I wrapped my wig carefully in the towels and put it all in my suitcase. On the afternoon we were bridge jumping, my grandchildren were playing in the lake and it started to rain. You might notice this on my video in my bridge jumping post. The wind started to blow and it got quite a bit colder than previously. My daughter told me she was getting towels out of the car.

I thought she meant her towels, I did not know she meant my towels which nestled my wig…my $500 wig. So she arrived back with towels and we headed to the Explorer with the kiddies wrapped up warm.

My daughter walked up to me and explained she found my wig laying next to the road by the bridge as she brought her children up the hillside!

Holy mother of pearl! My wig was laying on the ground?? In the dirt?? Next to the road?? How can this be?? I said a few choice words before we figured out she had opened my suitcase and grabbed my towels without noticing the carefully wrapped wig….oh my heavens.

Well when I calmed down (!!!!!) I told her I was sorry for getting mad at her and I brushed out my wig, so thankful that she had noticed it lying on the side of the road (I didn’t see it there?) and picked up and big wad of hair without really knowing why it was there. I’m so thankful my sweet daughter picked up my new wig!

I’m sure my wig will have many adventures over the next several months.

I wore part of my black Halo on a rollercoaster July 4th and it never even came off! I was upside down for quite awhile, so there’s another adventure right??

You never know what life will throw at you!