So last night, I had to unwind before going to bed. Work this week was not a pleasant experience. (For some reason I feel like work should be fun! It shouldn’t be work, I don’t know where I’ve got this odd idea)
My Oprah magazine came in the mail and I thought I would read a bit to focus on something else!
I found an article on Menopause and thought I would see if there’s anything in it to help explain WTH my life feels the way it does 😂😆 I was genuinely curious.
So, to give a little background. Thursday in heading in the door to work and finding out there isn’t an office – I felt this crazy surge of rage (and freak I’m not an angry person) and an image popped into my head of myself “throwing my metal water bottle at the speed of light smashing through the big glass window” in our main front office-WTH is wrong with me??
Anyway, back to my magazine and article on menopause. Did you know, unreasonable anger is a symptom of menopause?? When I read that, I thought you gotta be kidding me!! All this time I wondered if I was going crazy or if I was a bad person or somehow I’ve been crazy all along. Trust me, these are odd thoughts for me as a therapist but this totally makes sense to me.
There have been soooo many times at the checkout or in traffic or at work that I just feel outrageously angry and I never knew this is normal for a woman going through menopause.
First off, it might just be lucky that we don’t have many menopausal women going postal out in public cause I’ve managed to control my flash of anger but how is everyone else doing it?
Holy cow, wouldn’t it be nice if someone let us know this is what to expect when we will never be expecting?? Hopefully one day my hormones will settle down and I’ll be my normal self again.
Happy Thursday! Can you believe it’s the end of September? It doesn’t feel like it here in Utah; it’s still a little warm.
I was walking the other day, trying to get in my 10,000 steps and over the time of my walk- I noticed feeling very thankful for my legs.
I have a couple of scars on my knees- one I don’t remember what happened but the other was a bicycle wreck when I was a teenager. Several years ago I hurt my left knee waterskiing and this year I hurt my right knee in another bicycle accident but no lasting effects from these incidents.
I can’t generally sit cross legged or kneel/squat for long periods as my knees and hips start to ache; but on the whole my legs have really taken me far and been so dependable.
I’m very thankful for the things my body does: such as biking on the river trail and lifting weights.
I think it’s important to focus on what our bodies do rather than what they look like. How about you?
I was going to say happy weekend but today is Sunday and it’s almost over 😕 the weekends go by so quickly don’t you think??
Anyway I wanted to share excitement from Thursday! While waiting for a co worker to finish up (I waited to visit her new home!) I wandered to Fashion Place Mall- exchanged my top at Nordstrom, browsed through H&M, and then wandered through Zara. To my surprise I discovered a wonderful orange striped (gathered or rouched) dress that has some gold threads in it too! The rouching is on one side of the dress which makes one appear very curvy when wearing. It was only $12!! What a deal! And I tried it on and fit!
I also found a sweet clutch type bag with a shoulder strap – only this girl (bag) is leather looking snake print with some turquoise shades! It’s amazing looking, hard to describe! That clutch is $29 but marked down quite a bit (since snakeprint is so hot right now I couldn’t resist the fun)!
I got up to the checkout and the girl said how gorgeous the dress and bag are together and asked where I’m going “out”- as in somewhere elegant. Haha I said I don’t really go “out” but might wear to work or church 😂 she looked at me kinda odd but whatever right!!?
So my friends, next time you need a deal- visit the Zara clearance section and you won’t be disappointed!
I’m sharing some pride in my sister, let me tell you all about it:
Last night I was scrolling through Facebook and found a post from a distant relative. It appeared she had taken a picture of the back/behind of two women in swim attire and proceeded to shame them based on their weight and appearance; calling them “visual pollution”….so offensive right? I was surprised to see this coming from someone I know.
I then scrolled down and read a comment my sister Tenae posted; saying she found this sad that a woman would take a picture of other women, denigrating their appearance and weight, calling this body shaming (which it is) and applauding these women for just being themselves despite society standard of beauty (which we all know is jacked up). I was so proud of my sister to stand up to a bully and speak truth. I commented on her comment that I agreed with her and we needed to all be kind to each other.
We then texted each other at the exact same time, “what is the deal”??? (Great minds right?) 😂
After that, this distantly related woman deleted BOTH our comments and I was like WTH??
But my friends, I’ve never been so proud to call Tenae my sister as I was in that moment that she spoke up for someone she didn’t even know and called out bad behavior! Bravo sweet sister! I love you! So proud of you!
Kindness is always in style my friends…pass it on.
Bullying and Body Shaming are never ok.
How was your weekend? I hope you and Monday are making peace with each other 🙂 Me and Mondays don’t always get along that why I wish this for you LOL
I thought I would share a new found discovery: I haven’t worn shorts in about 16 years. I think I was always a little self conscious and felt awkward about my legs but the last year or so I realize I need to let that go!
(Last year as I began my blog, I started wearing more dresses in the summer, kind of letting my legs out in the open) and I realize its fun and there is nothing wrong with my legs 🙂
So this year for my birthday, I got a gift card from my employer and I bought a straw tassel hat and a yellow striped ruffle sleeve shirt at Target and paired it with some destroyed denim shorts (the best deal ever for $3 at JCPenney)! Then I took a picture with my shorts on AND went out to dinner with the hubs with my shorts on! Is that celebrating or what??! I feel super accomplished taking this step and being less judgmental of myself.
Anyone want to join me and be less judgmental?? All aboard my self love train! Everyone is welcome and there is room! 🙂
I have another birthday this week and it’s a good reminder not to do stupid things!
My co worker (probably 15 years younger than I and parent to a young girl on cheer squad) on Friday said “I’ll give you $50 to do this”… and she straightened out her leg and propped it on top of the front desk in our office entryway (counter is shoulder height).
Of course I can’t resist a dare and did so with my left leg, while she is saying “you have to straighten your knees”! Then I tried it with my right leg (seriously what was I thinking??)
I got a huge cramp in my right thigh that immediately made my nonsense stop but since then have been having terrible pain in my hip (maybe my hamstring?)
I couldn’t sleep most of the night and am thinking how silly I was to take a dare! (I did do it though-she owes me $50)! At least I could have stretched first!!
Some times I have random thoughts such as “do I wear too much pink”? Normally I’m the last one to leave the house in the mornings and it’s even not a question I can ask my husband because he has no opinion on what color I wear LOL
But I have to remember….it is vital to remember IT DOES NOT MATTER! LOL I could wear pink or green or a dress or a skirt and IT DOES NOT MATTER!
I think I could probably wear pink pants, pink shirt, pink jacket, pink shoes with pink bag and earrings and IT STILL WOULD NOT MATTER!
These are my thoughts for the day, when you have those judgmental things pop up in your mind (such as: am I too fat, can someone see this zit, does my hair look funny, am I wearing too much pink, can someone see my wrinkles?)….say to yourself IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT I THINK and then wear what you want, ignore that zit, ignore what the media says you should weigh or ignore judgments about your hair or age or makeup or skin or feet. This will help, I promise.
Just to show it does not matter, I’m attaching photos of the day I thought I wore too much pink…I don’t think my thoughts about that mattered.