Several years ago (actually about 2001) I was searching for my dog (Rufus) around 130am in my neighborhood with my (now ex) husband.
I ran out of the house in just a knee length T-shirt with no shoes. It was summer and I often run around with no shoes.
I couldn’t find Rufus and set back walking home. I was only about 3 blocks from my house (ex husband was on a bicycle looking) when I realized someone was following me. I turned around and a man was on the sidewalk nearby..I think he said “come here” and reached out to grab me. I jumped so far back and maybe I yelled I don’t remember. It was scary. I called the police the next day but nothing happened. I don’t remember feeling safe in my neighborhood again.
After this incident I took a Taekwondo class where I learned how to yell and punch. Who knew I had a hard time yelling?
Then a few years ago (again quite a few, this is 2007) I worked at our local State Mental Hospital graveyard shift. One morning around 6am-I am almost off -and as I walked out the staff door into the general patient area-a psychotic woman (much bigger than I) punched me in the face-between the eyes-(it did not break my nose but hurt like hell later and gave me terrible headaches) I cannot remember her punching me but found myself on the ground in the hall with her arm around my neck-choke style. Several staff members got her arms from around my neck and I stumbled to the staff desk.
A few years ago I called 911 because I could see a man beating up a woman on our street corner. I didn’t feel safe going outside in the middle of the night to confront someone.
As a woman (especially one getting older) I feel vulnerable and I don’t want to be beat up again or fear for my safety in my neighborhood or in the car by myself.
So the last few weeks I have been visiting my local Ready Gunner-and I’ve rented about 10 handguns deciding what I like and what I’m comfortable with. This last Tuesday I bought a Glock 43X and now I need to spend time at the range getting more comfortable with my new friend.
Over the weekend I had some fun at the wig store-Creative Wigs in Orem Utah.
I’ve been a little lonely ever since I got rid of my black hair, it is such a fun color; so on a whim I went to the wig store Saturday!
There were several women at the store who seemed to be supporting one older lady in a wheelchair. She seemed hesitant to get a wig although the one I saw on her looked so cute!
I started helping myself to the wigs displayed and tried some on at the stand next to the big group.
I found the one I liked ($125 too, what a deal! Along with being synthetic and heat resistant!)and an associate trimmed the lace around the face for me.
I went to pay for my gorgeous, curly, long, dark, lush prize and met this cute, older lady at the cashier. I told her she would love having a wig and it looked so cute on her! Don’t we all need a vote of confidence from a stranger??
I hope all of you had a good weekend! I had fun with my family in our annual Halloween party. Each of us makes some kind of ghoulish food that is actually edible and it’s super fun. We had this party on Saturday and it really made my weekend 🙂
I thought I would share something interesting I discovered last week. My granddaughter was doing her daily reading (she is a 4th grader and is supposed to practice her reading every day). She read Snow White aloud to me and then asked me what I thought.
Me being a therapist all of a sudden realized! Holy crap, what’s up with fairy tales? Here is a story of a woman who daily asks her mirror “who is the fairest”? as if that’s a contest one person can win. Then one day as she has aged, her mirror lets her know, there’s a new contestant and BTW you lose now, game over!
Really??? And to top that off, said older woman decides to pursue murder as a way of solving her problem of aging and not being the “fairest of them all”???
This sounds like a modern day problem, but I’ve heard this story forever. I’m just now getting a little bit of insight that we have some jacked up ideas in our culture…like women need to be beautiful and number one beautiful all their lives, like it’s a contest and winner take all, even to the extreme. That actually doesn’t sound like a fairy tale, that sounds like things I’ve heard for years. But this crap is what we’re also teaching our young people.
My granddaughter asked me what I thought of her reading and I told her it’s actually ok for women to age and it’s ok for someone to be younger and prettier than me. It’s a normal part of life and I’m happy anyway even if there is someone younger, (like everyone under 55) and prettier (that’s always gonna be a thing right? I don’t have to buy into that dumb contest), wrapping my arms around her mother and telling her I love that she is younger and prettier and it’s ok that she is and I’m ok the way I am….
And we don’t need to hire a huntsman to hunt down the competitor.
Boom (images are of the Disney Movie) and picture is me and my two daughters
Hey friends! Happy Sunday! I hope this post helps you ignore that tomorrow is Monday! 😊
I thought I would share something I discovered lately; it seems as if crop tops are making another splash into fashion. That is all fine and good if you are 24 (I used to think)-
A few months ago (really it was probably 6 months) I found the cutest crop tee -regular neckline) from Forever 21, it’s an army green with bold letters spelling “Chicago” and I just fell in love (plus it reminds me of my trip to this beautiful city)! It’s been in my drawer forever (you know I seldom get rid of clothes-just in case) and this week I was scrounging for something different to wear when I re discovered my crop tee!
Let me tell you how a crop tee works for someone my age…you wear high waisted jeans with it! And I also added a structured plaid jacket (I wore to work) so it seems very businesslike until you realize I’m wearing distressed denim and a crop top. It’s so fun!
I’m gonna keep my eyes open for more crop tops! (Think Forever 21- such a wallet friendly place) Be open to all kinds of styles no matter your age! You can make anything fit your own vibe!
So last night, I had to unwind before going to bed. Work this week was not a pleasant experience. (For some reason I feel like work should be fun! It shouldn’t be work, I don’t know where I’ve got this odd idea)
My Oprah magazine came in the mail and I thought I would read a bit to focus on something else!
I found an article on Menopause and thought I would see if there’s anything in it to help explain WTH my life feels the way it does 😂😆 I was genuinely curious.
So, to give a little background. Thursday in heading in the door to work and finding out there isn’t an office – I felt this crazy surge of rage (and freak I’m not an angry person) and an image popped into my head of myself “throwing my metal water bottle at the speed of light smashing through the big glass window” in our main front office-WTH is wrong with me??
Anyway, back to my magazine and article on menopause. Did you know, unreasonable anger is a symptom of menopause?? When I read that, I thought you gotta be kidding me!! All this time I wondered if I was going crazy or if I was a bad person or somehow I’ve been crazy all along. Trust me, these are odd thoughts for me as a therapist but this totally makes sense to me.
There have been soooo many times at the checkout or in traffic or at work that I just feel outrageously angry and I never knew this is normal for a woman going through menopause.
First off, it might just be lucky that we don’t have many menopausal women going postal out in public cause I’ve managed to control my flash of anger but how is everyone else doing it?
Holy cow, wouldn’t it be nice if someone let us know this is what to expect when we will never be expecting?? Hopefully one day my hormones will settle down and I’ll be my normal self again.
I hope everyone had a good weekend! I had the best time with four of my grandkids, they are so precious; I am very blessed. Not to mention they are a hoot! One grandson in response to a question, did you get enough bacon tonight said “Yes (in a news commentator tone) I had 23 pieces”! LOL! One granddaughter proves herself to be an excellent shopper in training at Build A Bear and had a stash of $$$ things she wanted but was very sweet to put most of it back. Another granddaughter is developing her sense of humor and put a dinosaur growl into her sweet lovable snugly kitty! Another grandson is at the age where he is learning about his emotions and is not quite adept at being effective to express himself (code: he had a meltdown in the parking lot when asked to hold hands for his safety, btw grandma is not going to let him run through parking lots)! Anyway it was fun and I love them so much!
I think these little people keep me young because I find myself trolling the junior section of Target looking for trendy, colorful and different wardrobe pieces that I can adapt for myself. I discovered this AH-mazing skirt (it’s so colorful and the material is kind of bumpy so there is that textural piece that is fun). I paired it with boots also from Target (these two items from their Wild Fable line-I’m guessing it’s targeting young women, but hey it’s cute so head there next time you’re in Target) and I added a spring-y graphic T from JCPenney, I just love graphic tees but I want my message to fit who I am, so this one is bomb! I also (just for kicks) added a real distressed jean jacket (last year from Forever 21) and my snugly faux fur backpack (from Walmart) and here ya go! A fun, trendy, colorful outfit that fits my personality!
Happy Thursday! Can you believe it’s the end of September? It doesn’t feel like it here in Utah; it’s still a little warm.
I was walking the other day, trying to get in my 10,000 steps and over the time of my walk- I noticed feeling very thankful for my legs.
I have a couple of scars on my knees- one I don’t remember what happened but the other was a bicycle wreck when I was a teenager. Several years ago I hurt my left knee waterskiing and this year I hurt my right knee in another bicycle accident but no lasting effects from these incidents.
I can’t generally sit cross legged or kneel/squat for long periods as my knees and hips start to ache; but on the whole my legs have really taken me far and been so dependable.
I’m very thankful for the things my body does: such as biking on the river trail and lifting weights.
I think it’s important to focus on what our bodies do rather than what they look like. How about you?
How was your weekend? I hope you and Monday are making peace with each other 🙂 Me and Mondays don’t always get along that why I wish this for you LOL
I thought I would share a new found discovery: I haven’t worn shorts in about 16 years. I think I was always a little self conscious and felt awkward about my legs but the last year or so I realize I need to let that go!
(Last year as I began my blog, I started wearing more dresses in the summer, kind of letting my legs out in the open) and I realize its fun and there is nothing wrong with my legs 🙂
So this year for my birthday, I got a gift card from my employer and I bought a straw tassel hat and a yellow striped ruffle sleeve shirt at Target and paired it with some destroyed denim shorts (the best deal ever for $3 at JCPenney)! Then I took a picture with my shorts on AND went out to dinner with the hubs with my shorts on! Is that celebrating or what??! I feel super accomplished taking this step and being less judgmental of myself.
Anyone want to join me and be less judgmental?? All aboard my self love train! Everyone is welcome and there is room! 🙂
Happy Friday! Isn’t Friday the most wonderful day?? It’s sort of like Christmas Eve, the day before the best day of the week leading to my favorite days of the week. Friday is usually always a good day 🙂
I had an eyebrow emergency yesterday. I grabbed my eyebrow pencil, Anastasia Brow Whiz and tried to roll up the pencil, but nothing happened and I realized it was empty! NOOOOOOOO…..hence my emergency. There was a little nub that I managed to outline my brows but it was not the same LOL
So after work yesterday I quickly walked to Ulta (from parking lot/car) and found my favorite eye brow pencil.
I’ve learned that my eyebrows are not exactly alike and that’s ok. Someone once told me, “eyebrows are sisters, not twins” and I love remembering that. I’m adding pictures today of before I do my eyebrows, after I do my eyebrows, and then with my hair and lips done. I’ve noticed my right eyebrow has more of an arch and my left eyebrow is more straight, no matter what I do to try and make them the same, they want to do their own thing. I’m exercising acceptance with my eyebrows LOL!
When younger, my eyebrows were thicker and I also did not have rosacea so I didn’t wear heavy foundation (most times I did not wear foundation at all). Now my eyebrows are a little thinner due to age or thyroid disease, I am not sure; so I pencil more in and it seems to also match my dyed hair. I dye my hair (I have a lot of gray) and right now I like my hair this color; I also like the red streaks, it’s fun. Maybe when I’m older, I will let it go gray, I’m not sure yet. I’ve also tried lighter foundations because my skin tone is originally fair, but rosacea has made my face and neck so red that the lighter tones on my face look odd against my dark (red) neck. So I wear a darker foundation (Estee Lauder Double Wear) and pencil in my brows so everything kind of matches.
I hope this helps anyone else who suffers from rosacea or age related eye brow thinning.
Hello Friends!! This deserves it’s own post right?? I’m super excited to have each of you as followers on my blogging journey and thankful you take the time to read.
I think blogging might be a little like life in some ways. It takes time to accomplish big goals, like graduating college or getting your dream job. I’ve been blogging less than a year but as I try to think up at least three entries a week, I am challenged and sometimes inspired. Hopefully more times inspired LOL! I really wanted to make this work for me and be a sort of outlet (self care in some ways) for my thoughts about aging, fashion, work, women, fashion (again) and life in general.
I’m super excited to hit this milestone, although will continue to blog my way to a different age and different challenges! Thanks for reading friends!